This morning, before I was even fully awake, I began comparing myself to others. Both favorably and unfavorably. I actually did both within a minute. This is very unattractive behavior.
Why do we do this? On what cosmic scale are we trying to measure ourselves and to what end? The outcome will never, ever be happiness even if we carefully choose our comparisons so we believe we are justified and place ourselves fully in the column marked “Superior.”
I gave myself a firm talking to and hopefully we’re done with that for the day. I’m aiming high to say I won’t do it for the rest of the day. These sorts of behaviors tend to creep up on us. We must remain ever vigilant against ourselves, against our egos.
What I’d really like to do, the thing that will truly make me happy, is to revel in what I have, what I am and in what I am becoming. When I’m not busy lamenting my failures and/or feeding my ego with delusions of superiority, I can stay soundly on safe ground in living in gratitude and dreaming of possibility.
I recently heard the question, “What would you do today if you had no past?” and I was instantly captivated. The idea that we would make different, grander choices if we didn’t already have limiting ideas of who we are, thrills me.
The idea that we can be something so much more if we saw dreams as possible, if we saw ourselves as capable, if we truly lived in possibility, is pleasing. To say the least. So much more pleasing than bothering ourselves with some imaginary scale of comparisons that will inevitably make us unattractively pious and defeated.
So I ask you the question; What would you do today if you weren’t limited in your thinking by the past? Your history is not what defines you, your successes and failures, as you label them, aren’t who you are going to be. So what do you choose… TODAY?
As for me, I am sending out positive vibes to those people I was comparing myself to. I hope what appear to be their successes truly are and that their lives are blessed by them. I hope the feebly judged “failures” are just stepping stones to greater understanding and a deeper view of life. I have no business judging their business.
As for myself, I hope to not only shut down the judgment machinations of my mind, but to live in possibility, unencumbered by my former beliefs. Put simply, I hope we all live a day that surpasses our former expectations and that we allow ourselves to live in unfettered gratitude.